Bismillah Arrahman Arrahim.
Sambungan kisah haji yang tergantung. I changed phone, dan tiba-tiba terjumpa karangan tentang haji ni dalam app notes. It was written on 2016, but never get published. One of my bad habit(?), suka tulis and then left it unfinished or unpublished.
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8 Zulhijjah. A day before Arafah. ** I like hostel yg kami duduk di Azaziyah. Satu bilik 5org. My roommates all of them level my mom, dh bercucu semua. Overall ok. Diorg bercerita, aku dengar. Most of the time aku baca Quran. My focus is really on my ibadah. As i said in prev pict, hikmah besar Allah delayed lulus visa is I appreciated every moment i am in mekah. So xde bnyk terkecimpung dgn activity lagho.
Sebelah flat hostel kami bnyk la kedai2 jualan. Kedai kain, baju, carpet itu ini, jalan depan skit ada Bin Dawood -- ni jemaah lain yg cakap. Aku tak jalan mana sgt. Sebab masa mcm singkat so mindset dok fikir perkara haji jer.
Kami bergerak ke Arafah malam 8Zulhijjah menaiki bas. Subhanallah, I love the view so much. Hujjaj dengan kain ihram bertalbiah - Labbaik Allah humma labbaik. Labbaik la sharika laka labbaik. Innal hamda. Wan-ni'mata. Laka walmulk. Laa sharika lak - arr.. Subhanallah. Ada yg jln kaki, ada yg berdukung bawak anak, ada pula bas rosak, dan mcm2 lagi pemandangan yg buat hati rasa sayu sgt. I did cried in the bus. Terharu. Kisah2 haji selalu menggamit rasa. Tak pernah sangka on that night i am experiencing it myself. Allahuakbar.
Kami sampai Arafah jam 12mlm. Lepas dpt khemah, kemas everything, I laid myself to sleep. Alhamdullilah lena dan terjaga jam330 dikejutkan utk qiyamulail. Qiyam, fajr, tazkirah everything done by 7am. Waktu kat mekah cepat sejam - mcm subuh if kat msia jam6, sana jam5pg. We had breakfast at 730am and after that we were advised to take a rest. So i read the Quran before gone to sleep till 11am. Zhur is 1230pm, and waktu Arafah starts after zhur till magrib. Salah satu syarat sah haji adalah berada di arafah in between zhur-mgrb at least 5min.
After zhur dan khutbah hajj, tibalah kita ke saat-saat genting. Saat di mana الله janji mereka yg berdoa di hari Arafah memohon keampunan akan keluar dari Arafah itu seperti bayi yg baru lahir- bersih dari segala dosa. Allahuakbar. Zhur to mgrb: nmpk macam lama tapi sekejap sebenarnya. Nk katakan sekejap pun tidak la sgt sbb nk mengekalkan momentum tu adalah mencabar dalam cuaca bersuhu 50•c. Alhamdullilah mutawir kami sgt membantu utk mengekalkan momentum esp lepas Asr bila kita dh mula rasa penat dan nk bermalas shj. Ada aktiviti muhasabah bersama pasangan, berdoa berjemaah dan sesi tazkirah jugak. Alhamdullilah. We survived Arafah and later headed to Mudzdalifah with smile on our face.
Gambar from my intagram.
Bila masuk waktu Magrb maka tamat lah sudah waktu Arafah. Nx stop is to mabit at Mudzdalifah. Ikut sunnah, after mgrb, Rasullulah akan bergerak terus dr Arafah ke Mudzdalifah dan apabila tiba di Mudzdalifah baru solat jamak mgrb-isya. But since group kami nk mengelakkan kelam kabut, kami solat dulu sebelum gerak. Jumlah hujjaj dlm group kami adalah 60orang. Untuk memudahkan perjalanan, Our mutawir divided us into 2. Yg berkerusi roda, org tua, yg ada sakit2 in one group, manakala yg kuat muda (macam kami) in another group. Nk keluar dari maktab kami di Arafah is also a battle. Bus dtg dlm 7-10 minit sekali. The whole maktab is plus minus 500 hujjaj (comes from all over southeast asia- ada khemah jepun, thailand, india, pakistan, china etc. Unlike if pergi dgn tabung Haji, the whole maktab will be 1malaysia. *kami pergi swasta btw). So berbaris panjang nk keluar pintu utama. Dah sampai dekat pintu utama, nmpk je bas dtg semua bertolak2. Subhanallah. Penjaga pintu akan kira dlm 50org cmtu and then terus tekan tolak tutup pintu grill tu. Dari group kami pun ada yg terpisah suami isteri, some couple ok with that, and some are not. Alhamdullilah me and mat is always together. Btw, ada Amina dlm perut mak 😆.
Sampai Mudzdalifah tgk, wah tanah lapang yg kosong berbatu-batu, beratapkan awan dengan huge gate. Ada deretan tandas di hujung pintu (which of course, i didn't take any tour). Pintu gate masih berdasar kepada nombor maktab. Ours is #68. Masuk gate mata melilau cari bendera group. Alhamdullilah jumpa. Kami tak bawak tikar. Even telah di advise but we refuse to buy sbb bazir nnt habis everything berbuang tikar tu. So kami just bentangkan kain batik, and sejadah utk spot tempt kami berbaring. Before that cari batu for melontar. Done kutip batu, baring dan terus terlena Alhamdullillah. By midnight, kami dikejutkan untuk destinasi seterusnya- Mina utk melontar. Kali ni nk keluar gate Mudzdalifah to get bus is better, tak la berebut sgt. Sbb group kami, atas kata sepakat, sekali lagi amik wajib tak follow sunnah, which if according to sunnah, Rasullulah akan solat Fajr dulu di Mudzdalifah before gerak melontar. Alhamdullilah sgt. Sbb 2015, the biggest stampeded happen which nearly 800 people died.
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Hajj and its memories.. Bukan hanya sekadar ibadah, tapi haji juga merupakan percutian kami suami isteri ke luar negeri buat pertama kali nya. After 9years of marriage. Berbaloi sgt tunggu tu.. 😆.
And the biggest decision that i made is to donning the Niqab. Aku masih rasa cm tak percaya je ngan diri sendiri tentang perkara niqab. I am a simple person. I am so sorry to say this but masa study dulu mak tak pakai tudung pun. Reason is leceh. Leceh la nk gosok sume tu. Dia jd lmbt nk bersiap.
Alhamdullilah, Allah memberi ruang utk aku belajar dan kembali. 2003 ramadhan I donned the hijab for good. Alhamdullilah. After dapat Hamza and bercuti lama dari kerja, ruang masa yg ada dimanfaatkan juga utk belajar; I started to wear jubah and tudung instant extra labuh. Reasonnya sbb tis is pakaian ready solat. Mudah. I don't have to think about bringing telekung every time outing or suffering myself with telekung kepam kat surau2.
Berbalik kpd kisah niqab, after keluar ihram, I decided to jalan2 pakai niqab. So i told mat and he is ok. Why nk pakai niqab? Well, i like how discreet one can be by wearing the niqab. Sbb masa beli brg di kedai, ada this local lady wearing niqab lining up in front of me. She paid and the balance was put on the counter table and the seller (a man) tak angkat muka pun tgk dia. When my turn, he look straight to my face and my balance dia nk bg kat atas tangan which i dislike sbb nnt terkena kulit. So i was like special nya bila pakai niqab. Mula tu plan nk pakai masa kat sana jer, then Mat asked, in the bus masa kami nk berpindah dari Aziziyah ke Haraam, am I going to wear this niqab for good, and I asked him back, abg ok ke kalau sy nk pkai kat Msia jgk? He said, ok jer. And here i am being a niqabi, right after we've done with tahallul awal. Yang jelasnya, xde paksaan.
And as i said, i am a simple person. Being niqabi is such a struggle. Imho, jika di negara barat, when u donned the hijab, then you carry the deen. So goes the niqab to me. I hope and pray that this piece of cloth that covering my face will be the reason for me to appreciate Islam more, carry it as how it should be, and make me closer to Allah. 😊
Semoga perkongsian ini memberi manfaat.
Alhamdullillah atas kurnia-Nya.
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