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Bismillah ArRahman ArRahim

Coming back from fetching kids from school, we were discussing about ambition - sorang nk jadi youtuber, sorang tak pasti nak jadi apa tapi nak pergi Jepun or Rusia, sorang nak jadi Chef dan yang si kecik nak jadi Doktor. Heheee...

So one of my kids asked me - do I really want to become a microbiologist? And without hesitant I said Yes. That's my ambition when I was in Form5 - sangat terinspired dengan Pn Ho, our biology's teacher yang merupakan graduan Microbiology from UM. And during our first class biology form 4 subject Sel Sumber Kehidupan - we were introduced to using the microscope - and most girls tak dapat nak mencari titik fokus - spesimen nampak blur - end up I helped the class to refining their microscope and Pn Ho cakap - Wah, Anneeza boleh jadi mikrobiologist. Masa tu tak faham apa dia cakap but I guess that was a time when dua is accepted, and so I became one.

However, masa masuk matriks, I became one of the student who good in Math, even the teacher asked me how to solve some of the math problems - and I feel that maybe I should major in Math for preGrad (walaupon secara hakikat subjek Math Tambahan masa SPM dapat cangkul). So I chose to major in Statistic, got accepted in the Math Faculty but only able to bear for a semester - as the end result for semester one was so bad - I failed 2 major subjects - Calculus (which semilar to Add Math) and Economy. Masa tu fikir nk jadi penulis la, nk amik journalism - so I apply to chg to Jabatan Komukasi Massa, but got rejected from the Faculty FSKK. Khayr. Alhamdullillah. Bila fikir balik memang Allah swt itu menjaga. Kerana jika diterima masuk dan kemudian bekerja dalam bidang kewartawanan, erm, terasa seperti banyak fitnahnya.

So, I chged to Fakulti Sains Biologi and later taking microbiolgy as major and later on buat post-grad in Microbiology jugak eventho result pre-grad tidaklah membanggakan. Alhamdullillah, semua susunan Allah swt itu sangat indah. Ma shaa Allah, subhanallah. I got to become microbiologist, practising what i learnt for about 5years before decided to become fulltime mom. Which waktu tu pun takla fulltime sangat sebab dok sibuk menjahit baby carrier. Talking about the business - NeezaNeedles - hampir 8tahun juga berkecimpung dalam sektor jahit menjahit baby carriers ni. Some was telling me that the brand was quite established in Malaysia. Wallahu3alam. Maybe jugak becos when I decided to jump into the business, masa tu tak ramai penjual - unlike now. Keputusan untuk bersara dari NeezaNeedles, bukan lah keputusan yang pantas dibuat. I always pray that the business prosper and expand, I dream of having a brick store and a mini factory yet Allah swt knows what is the Best for me and all. I don't know, somehow along the road, after coming back from Hajj - I just lost interest. I starts to decline orders, and finally after few isthikarah, I declared that the business closed. Sep 2018. Sold everything off and Yes, decided to give 100% focus to what I am doing now - study the Quran.

Alhamdullillah. I am happy - inside out. Life is amazing - Alhamdullillah. Everyday I learn new things, and I always want to learn new things. Cita-cita sekarang adalah untuk menghafal Quran dan kemudian menghafal lagi dalam qiraat yang berbeza - I like Riwayah Qunbul - bacaan nya sangat menarik without mim sukun, ma shaa Allah.

And I also inspired to write a memoir - story tentang diri sendiri untuk tinggalan generasi akan datang. Well, yang ini tulis dalam blog sahaja  - jangan blogspot tutup sudah.

Begitu la kisah cita-cita - semakin kita menginjak tua semakin cita-cita itu berubah - mahu hampir kepada Allah swt. Semoga pengakhiran hidup disudahi dengan husn ul-khotimah. Aameen.

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